it's been almost three weeks since i've left home. i'm working lots, seeing my friends, spending time with ryan and eating waaaay better than before. not perfect yet, but there's fruits and veggies in my meals now, which is great!!! i started on the organic liasion and i find it's helping hardcore and i'm losing the weight! the weight will be gone. i am so sick of being this big. it's starting! i'm down at least 5 lbs. i have a doc's appointment on friday which will let me know what progress i've been making. kelly took my measurements down the other day so we're gonna measure again in two weeks because it's not all about the number on the scale, the measurements do make a difference too. nimbus is coming here on friday and i'm soooo excited! i'm pretty sure that bringing her here is the best thing for me but it's going to rip the delicate relationship i have going with dad right now. mom and i aren't even talking properly and kirsty and i aren't even talking at all. it is what it is for me to be able to focus on me right now. losing weight and eating better and getting healthy are my top priorities now. my focus has shifted and it's going to stay totally on me until i get to the point where i don't need it anymore.
seeing: a tidy but not fully unpacked room...going to get thru at least 2 boxes today b4 work
hearing: the clickity clack of the keyboard...didn't want to start music b4 the wii time
feeling: like this is going to be one of the hardest paths i've chosen, but the right one
